It is with a heavy heart for me to say that a few weeks ago on Wednesday 1st October, my Mum passed away. We don't yet know why and it was very sudden.
I am finding this all very very difficult.
The funeral was on Thursday so this week is where my life begins again.
I'm now trying to piece my life back together. I am going back to Manchester this week for uni. I will be going back to work, socialising again and just generally living again.
With all this in mind, this whole situation has made me realise that life really is too short. My Mum was only 49 years old. There was so many things she wanted to do but never did get round to doing, So I have decided that I really want to live. I want to do things that I have always wanted to do.
Next year I am running the Great North Run for MIND charity. This is a charity that supports people with mental health issues. I want to get rid of the taboo surrounding mental health issues and raise awareness that ANYONE can get a mental health issue like depression, anxiety, bipolar or anything. I have so far raised £875 which I am absolutely thrilled about especially as I only initially aimed to raise £300 which was particularly ambitious in itself. So my training for that needs to start.
I also want to blog again, I don't know how often I'll blog or what about but I think it may be therapeutic to me. I think writing about my feelings, little life projects and whatever else I can think of will help me to vent my feelings on this little corner of the internet.
Hopefully my life will piece together again eventually although I know that I will always have a bit of me missing in my life where my mum should be.